Aug 14 2009
On Edge
“If fortune turns against you, even jelly breaks your tooth.” -Persian proverb
Today I was asked to go back to help my sister move more stuff to her boyfriend’s apartment. Our main goal for today was to get a bed for him. My big edge about not wanting to help is that it is by our state capitol and I dislike a lot of the people that hang around the state capitol. There is a college there and a lot of the students there are kind of snotty, but I also don’t like being around there because I have two ex girlfriends that live nearby there as well. I know they are not in my life anymore, but it isn’t them I worry about running into. I worry about running into their parents. For some strange reason, all the girls I have dated have parents that are very positive about their children’s choices and they like to brag. It’s kind of like running into people from high school that you liked before growing to hate them, but now they are extremely successful. Last time I ran into an ex’s parents they couldn’t stop bragging about how better off their daughter was without me, she was getting better grades, she is being offered a lot of jobs, she met a nicer boy, she is engaged, blah-blah-blah. Truth of it is I don’t really care about how my ex’s are doing, but more so I don’t like to be told that they are doing better than me. It sounds a bit selfish, but I prefer to be the one better off. So I was a little on edge being in that town because I felt exposed today.
I’m extremely excited that the movie Paper Heart came out today. It’s this movie that is about this girl, Charlene, and it is supposed to start as a documentary about how she doesn’t believe in love nor will she ever be in love. She decides to go across North America to find what love is to other people, but meets a boy, Michael Cera, in the process. The boy ends up liking her, but she doesn’t know how she feels and then that becomes part of the documentary. Even more interesting about it was the movie was originally shot documentary style, but then a narrative was added to make it a movie. I really want to see it. I didn’t get a chance today, but maybe tomorrow. One of my friends wants to go to the movies with me tomorrow, but I don’t think we will see it together considering how it would be two straight dudes watching a movie about love…that’s just kind of awkward. We shall see. I will let you all know when I go see it.
